This is my diary basically. I will be expressing my feelings and my experiences with things like faith, music, nostalgia, holidays/special occasions, and so many more things through these posts.
My Birthday I had my birthday exactly one month after my brother passed away. I remember the days leading up to my birthday I just felt an intense amount of fear and worry. I have no idea why but it consistently consumed my mind. When my birthday finally came I woke up that day and I completely forgot what day it was. The first person to wish me a happy birthday was my mom. The second my mom hugged me I wanted to cry so badly, but I knew that if I did she would also breakdown. I went to my living room and sobbed because I had never felt so lonely in my entire life. I had no desire to celebrate that day so we kept it simple and just us. Writing this and recalling the events of that makes me relive the pain and sadness I had felt that day.
